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Life is good, nv been better..

ninggege — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 09:13:34 +0000

As usual, have been blogging for ages AGAIN. Hahha im probably too “old” to be blogging anymore. Hahha used to be a channel to show the whole wat i have been up to, vent frustration, broadcast my deepest thoughts and display my affection. But now, i think facebook has taken over. There isnt a need to write long post anymore but just squeeze them into the 140 words limit status box. I tink is 140 words anyway.. or was that limit for twitter? LOL!

Nonetheless, for updates.. the new job! I left the shithole.. more than happy to say goodbyes to those shit. Miss my clients though, most of them nice ppl. Wiley is great, with nice team-mates & whole lot of happening stuffs. First 2 weeks were bad.. super confused and stressed out by all the new systems and procedures. 3rd week is stablization.. where things are falling in place. Hopefully, from 4th week onwards, it goes into “smooth operation” mode. Im really happy that i found a good place. Wont say much abt the future, but at least for now.. it has been great. =)

Life is good now.. nv been better! Im not trying to flaunt, im trying to show my appreciation to what i have now. Good job, good colleagues, great supportive family, loving bf who loves me being me, doting frens who cares & nv judge me plus providing me with vibrant social life, im not in any debts, i got my HDB flat & waiting for it to be built , im starting to save for the future (flat, wedding & everything else) & i go on a holiday once every year on average. Im easily contented.. i do not need alot of money to make me happy. Of cos having financial stability or more money make a difference when u so wanted that branded hangbag.. But at least, i satisify all my needs & some of my wants too although not all. LOL!

Im not asking for much.. i juz want things to go smoothly. When life seems to smooth, i get to worry.. how long this bliss will last.

Next up the social calendar… Butter on sat & halloween. *Cheers!*~

July- the bday month

ninggege — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 14:18:24 +0000

It is once again JULY… the month that used to be my fav month of the entire year becos of my bday. But this year.. it hasnt been good. In fact its probably the worst thus far. No mood for bday. Everyone has been asking me wat i wan for my bday. I wan a new job lor.. hahahah but tis one present no one can give but myself to search and strive for. Saded indeed. I say i wan to be a 败金女, i wan all the branded stuffs.. hahahha branded wristlet, branded hangbags, branded make up. Yup..things that i normally wont buy for myself. My bday is probably the only time i could get my hands on them.

Anyway, i cant tink of any wish list tis yr.Erm the things i wan are too expensive! LOL! Anyway, gg to have the first rd of bday celebration next week! Friday wif SMU colleagues, den Sat yanting they all are coming for a slp over!! Weeeeeee!!! More to come.. i really love my frens. They are there for me whenever i need them. I have been so depressed lately. I guess im scaring everyone. I get super duper sensitive, i got no appeitite to eat, i dun wan to go out, i cry and cant stop till i calm myself down. I found myself in the lowest pt- in a lousy job, with low pay, bills & debts pilling up… i totally have no motivation to work. Wat has become of me? It gave me a scare too. It felt like breaking up from a relationship. Funny, but that was how i felt. The past week was a torture..

May the remaining weeks of July till my bday be good ones.. i need all the blessing i could get.

July, oh July… r u gg to forsake me juz like tt? Its coming to the mid of july soon…=(

Work Sux.. so wat’s the right job for me?

ninggege — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 15:35:15 +0000

This two weeks have been a torture.. Work sux.. another rd of complaint emails.. Although in the end it is being resolved however, we are once again in another conflict with OFM.. Why is it so hard to work tgt peacefully? Does the problem lies with us or THEM? Or its juz politics @ play? Sometimes i wondered.. but i could get an ans. Extremely moody, emo, frustrated lately. There are again so many things that i wish i can write it all out.. but there are also many times that the tots keep running thru my mind.. In the ofc, on the train, bathing, eating.. and by the time i switch on my lappy and wanted to type.. It all runs dry! DUH!

Anyway, was toking abt jobs.. and… my job hunting.. not much of a progress SERIOUSLY.. i tink the prob lies with me. So many times i actually got a chance with big companies that i would love to work in. And all the time I FAILED. Boo says i din prepare and research enuf. Hmm quite true.. I tink i lack the confidence due to my lack of experience. End of the day, i realised the problem lies with me not knowing what i want to be, what i am good at, and what i really like to be doing. I am clueless abt my future.. Things i like to be doing i probably do not have the experience, etc. Somehow, something is missing. LOST & CLUELESS again. Damn sian feeliing. Wat is it that other people that are around my age have a good career or are progressing really well with theirs while i am still struggling and find out what is right for me? I cant help but *ENVY*.

But then again, to console myself (whenever i feel down), i would think… god is fair. Someone who is successful in their career will have some pitfall in other things. I mean im not trying to curse anyone, its just that we just have to understand that Life JUZ AINT GONNA BE PERFECT. In fact, it is alr a blessing when it doesnt SUX too much.. Where have all the happy days gone?? Socially, i would say life is still pretty perfect. That is like my consolation lorrr. Just partied last Fri @ Butter to celebrate lyly’s bday. FUN!! Anyway, back to the topic. I am feeling exactly what i am feeling 1 yr and 8 mths Ago.. What is the feeling? The Ans is: DYING TO LEAVE. Its filling v soon to the brink. I rem last time when i was so fed up @ OR with some stuffs that i dun quite even rem now.. but simply put im juz unhappy to the extent of crying. Lucky here in SMU, it hasnt gone to that extent. But it is v frustrating nonetheless, its just that the ppl here are more civilised. And attack you in a non barbaric manner. But an attack all the same.

I really hope i find a new job soon… really sick of it here. it wasnt extremely unbearable.. but i would really really like a change and leave. May good things come to me soon.. real soon. It will be the perfect bday gift. =)

And then again, i hope boo works hard and hit his target for next quarter. It is not abt the commission but as a salesperson i noe how it felt not hitting the target, feeeling demoralised and kenna “buttered” by the boss. *muacks* jiayou my boo!!

Long time no blog

ninggege — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 07:30:32 +0000

It has been quite some time since i laz blogged.. things happend.. some frustrating, some fun… Not much of update actually. Still cant find a new job. DAMN SIAN! Instead more partying!!! Went to Cheryl’s bday party yst, and it was a great blast! Oh and i saw my ex boss-JO fr OR! Wat a surprise.. Aint he too old to be clubbing?? That’s wat i asked him! Hahaha… Anywya, Waiting for the next party @ butter for lyly’s bday.! Im sure its gg to be fun too.. Long time since i club, and i really enjoyed it. Wat can i say, i really have great frens!~~~ So fast, its alr June. Half the yr is already gone, yet i felt like im still 原地踏步, 没有进展on anything. No new job, no new progress in current job.. everything is the same.. mundane.

“We muz be patient and await the right opportunity to come by… ” have been telling myself that everydaY!!

Grouchy

ninggege — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 16:47:04 +0000

Have been feeling v grouchy and emo recently. Was sick for the past wk from fever to indigestion. I seriously tink that there is a prob wif my tummy.. It’s so bloated now that I’m even scared by the image I saw in the mirror. Tummyache plus cramp is making the pain worse.. Hurrr! And work still sux! Saded, when can I find a new job??? Sob sob..

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As a Fren, how could u throw my care & concern to the wind? U nv fail to disappoint my faith in u huh..

Fml

ninggege — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 00:37:38 +0000

I hate wat is happening now… Everything! I hate my job and the environment, can’t wait to find a new job and leave this shit hole.. I hate it when everyone keeps calling and tell u they can’t do this they can’t do tt. Am I some genie that can do everything? WTF! I hate it when it started out promising and then no news out of the sudden… I’m waiting for a gd news to bring a change to my life. Seriously dislike the idea of job searching and interviewing again. I hate it when I’m constantly broke and haven start planning for the future when everyone else except me alr knows wat is their next 3 yrs plan. I hate it when there is ambiguity. I hate it knowing my life sux!!! Fml! Grrrrrrr…

我老了？不想玩了吗？

ninggege — Thu, 25 Mar 2010 15:40:46 +0000

我觉得我老了。不想玩乐了。这代表我长大了吗还是真的累了？偶尔还是会觉的生活无趣乏味。人是矛盾的，我承认。不知道是不是pms，心情起伏不定。boo 有时候气的我咬牙切齿！是他无辜还是我无理，又有谁能讲的通？

Meet up wif boo and his frens cos today is one of his fren’s bday. Dinner @ Jalan Kayu and ktv at serangoon gardens. I have to admit I can’t sing for nuts! Hahahahah. Can’t rch the notes and my throat seems too dry. Not an excuse though. Haha.juz can’t sing.

I’m on the cab reaching home soon. Gotta get home before my parents touch down Singapore. It’s gd to see my parents! Home alone isn’t a big deal to me? My parents travel quite often and I always have alot of freedom even when they are around. I miss home cooked food!!

Rching in less than 3 mins… Time to rush upstairs and get ready for their arrival! Weeeee!

一个人的星期天

ninggege — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 15:44:58 +0000

天气晴。 Boo 和我到咖啡店吃了早餐就回家了。我一个人在空荡荡的屋子里却不觉得孤单。有好多需要做的事情在脑海里转。我发觉我还蛮喜欢打扫的！It clears the mind!

我。。。一个人。。

打扫屋子，看报纸，上网找工作，计划这个月的开支。。吃着快熟面，看着电缆电视，喝着冰果汁。

独自享受一个人在家里的感觉。安静平静的下午。

Im running out of patience…!!!!

ninggege — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 05:14:49 +0000

i am seriously running out of patience, i need to get out of tis org asap!! The way they do things here is soooo terribleeee & unreasonable… nobody want to take reponsibility, no one wan to make decision and they are damn fast when it comes to sending complaint emails. Implement policies without notice and likes to do things their way.They are such unreasonable people! Damn pissed.. i really cant stand it anymore.. these people just dun understand reasons/logic or wat? WTF is their prob?!?~

Don’t take my friendship for granted

ninggege — Mon, 15 Mar 2010 05:33:08 +0000

I have decided. There is only so much i can do for you as a fren, and i believe i have been a very supportive one all this while. And it is upsetting enough for me to tink that i am only a convenient companion to you becos im always available. I am going to let go of my hand if you wan to continue to fly me aeroplanes and disregard my feelings. Waiting like a fool or pushing or changing other appointments so that i make time for you Becos i tot you would need my companionship more. Yes, i have decided. Don’t take my friendship for granted. my time is precious too. If i have been too direct or plain rude, you can see that I am truly disappointed in you.