Work Sux.. so wat’s the right job for me?
This two weeks have been a torture.. Work sux.. another rd of complaint emails.. Although in the end it is being resolved however, we are once again in another conflict with OFM.. Why is it so hard to work tgt peacefully? Does the problem lies with us or THEM? Or its juz politics @ play? Sometimes i wondered.. but i could get an ans. Extremely moody, emo, frustrated lately. There are again so many things that i wish i can write it all out.. but there are also many times that the tots keep running thru my mind.. In the ofc, on the train, bathing, eating.. and by the time i switch on my lappy and wanted to type.. It all runs dry! DUH!
Anyway, was toking abt jobs.. and… my job hunting.. not much of a progress SERIOUSLY.. i tink the prob lies with me. So many times i actually got a chance with big companies that i would love to work in. And all the time I FAILED. Boo says i din prepare and research enuf. Hmm quite true.. I tink i lack the confidence due to my lack of experience. End of the day, i realised the problem lies with me not knowing what i want to be, what i am good at, and what i really like to be doing. I am clueless abt my future.. Things i like to be doing i probably do not have the experience, etc. Somehow, something is missing. LOST & CLUELESS again. Damn sian feeliing. Wat is it that other people that are around my age have a good career or are progressing really well with theirs while i am still struggling and find out what is right for me? I cant help but *ENVY*.
But then again, to console myself (whenever i feel down), i would think… god is fair. Someone who is successful in their career will have some pitfall in other things. I mean im not trying to curse anyone, its just that we just have to understand that Life JUZ AINT GONNA BE PERFECT. In fact, it is alr a blessing when it doesnt SUX too much.. Where have all the happy days gone?? Socially, i would say life is still pretty perfect. That is like my consolation lorrr. Just partied last Fri @ Butter to celebrate lyly’s bday. FUN!! Anyway, back to the topic. I am feeling exactly what i am feeling 1 yr and 8 mths Ago.. What is the feeling? The Ans is: DYING TO LEAVE. Its filling v soon to the brink. I rem last time when i was so fed up @ OR with some stuffs that i dun quite even rem now.. but simply put im juz unhappy to the extent of crying. Lucky here in SMU, it hasnt gone to that extent. But it is v frustrating nonetheless, its just that the ppl here are more civilised. And attack you in a non barbaric manner. But an attack all the same.
I really hope i find a new job soon… really sick of it here. it wasnt extremely unbearable.. but i would really really like a change and leave. May good things come to me soon.. real soon. It will be the perfect bday gift. =)
And then again, i hope boo works hard and hit his target for next quarter. It is not abt the commission but as a salesperson i noe how it felt not hitting the target, feeeling demoralised and kenna “buttered” by the boss. *muacks* jiayou my boo!!
